Grades are officially posted for September, and, as expected, I got a B. But my final paper's grade still hasn't been posted. I even turned the thing in early. I'd like feedback on the paper, especially as it's a subject I may use again later.
This month seems that it will be an 'easy A', it's an intro programming class, the only real challenge is that it's a new language and a new compiler. I may be able to use my Microsoft Compiler which would make things easier, but we'll see.
I am officially taking today 'off' even though I did do a little homework.
35 is kind of freaking me out a little bit and I need to sit back and figure out what is really bothering me so I can deal with it and move on. I think it's partly looking at myself and seeing a life that I never imagined, that I never expected.
I'm not unhappy with my life, any more than anyone is happy or unhappy with their lives, I just had different plans. I don't regret any choice and I am here by my own choice and as a result of my own choices, but it's just so different from what I expected. I was supposed to have three kids by now, or working on a phD, or running a company while raising a family and all the rest of it. I guess I never dreamed I'd be 35 and alone.
That may be the real issue, I need to do some soul searching today. I can state, for the record, that I would MUCH MUCH rather be alone than in an unhappy marriage or having been through a nasty divorce.
I love where I live, I love my dear friends and family. I have two beautiful nephews that I miss terribly. I have the mortgage of a lifetime and I live in paradise. Materialistically I'm incredibly blessed, I"m not swimming in cash and there is debt, but I'm not struggling either.
I'll figure it out, this birthday is kind of a milestone of sorts, my health insurance goes up of all things. But I'm the same person I was yesterday, it's not like a switch flipped and now I'm old.
So yes, I'm 35 years old, nothing has changed and I am who I am in the life I have chosen. Go me!